This blog was originally published on March 14, 2014 at Horror-Punks.com.
How's
it going creepers? On Wednesday, I briefly
mentioned on Stalkbook Facebook that I had this crazy dream. I dreamt that I was
back at my 2nd college, UW-Parkside.
In the dream, a
vampire apocalypse and some incredibly bizarre, alternate universe
simultaneously existed. Everyone had doppelgangers, including yours truly.
This
alternate universe somewhat resembled that old Buffy: The Vampire Slayer
episode, "Doppelgangland."
If you have ever watched
"Doppelgangland," you will understand what I am about to discuss. However, if you have never seen "Doppelgangland," it's from Season 3: Episode 16.
"Doppelgangland" was a continuation of Season 3: Episode 9's "The Wish." It
has been years, since I last watched Buffy: The Vampire Slayer. If
memory serves me right, "The Wish" episode was right after Cordelia
caught Xander cheating on her with Willow.
After
Cordelia and Xander had both split up, she met Anyanka a.k.a. "Anya,"
who was a vengeance demon (she later became Xander's fiancee). Anyanka
granted wishes to scorned women, typically.
Cordelia wished that Buffy
never attended Sunnydale High School and her wish triggered an alternate
universe.
In the alternate universe, The Master
rose from the dead. Then, vampires started to over populate and dominate
Sunnydale. Gradually, Giles discovered a way to reverse Cordelia's wish
by destroying Anya's necklace. Anya's destroyed necklace resulted in
her losing her vengeance demon powers.
Eventually,
Anyanka re-appeared in "Doppelgangland." Anya tricked Willow into
assisting her in a failed attempt to recover her necklace and tried
regaining her vengeance demon powers through magic spells.
Their failed attempt at the spell transported Willow's vampire doppelganger to Sunnydale, where they both met each other.
Returning
to Wednesday's dream, there was a vampire apocalypse and we all had our
own doppelgangers at UW-Parkside. When I saw my doppelganger, I RAN
like hell.
In fact, there was a major stampede. Everyone
on campus ran from their own doppelgangers. Some of us instantly climbed
the campus walls and buildings.
Some people would've assumed that a shooting happened on campus (we actually did have a campus shoot-out, during
Thanksgiving Break 2002). I don't know whether to consider this
disturbing dream to be a so-called "day terror," bad omen, OR simply just a
fucked up dream.
On Wednesday evening, I went onto Dream Moods and read its dream analyses. I searched the words
"apocalypse," "doppelganger," "alternate universe," and "vampires."
According to Dream Moods, here is what the dream analyses said:
Apocalypse-
"To dream of the apocalypse signifies an emotional and dramatic change
taken place within yourself. The dream may also indicate the end of one
kind of lifestyle and the beginning of another."
Doppelganger- "To see your own doppelganger in your dream is a reflection of your
negative actions. The dream is showing you the consequences of your
actions and what you should not do. Alternatively, the dream signifies bad luck, danger, and/or illness.
To
dream that you are fighting with your doppelganger means that you are
struggling between good and evil and right and wrong. If you kill your
own doppelganger, then it indicates that you have successfully repressed
certain negative emotions from surfacing."
Universe-
"To see the universe in your dream signifies the endless possibilities.
You need to look at the overall big picture. Alternatively, the dream
brings to your attention that we are all interconnected in some way."
Vampires- "To see a vampire in your dream symbolizes seduction and sensuality, as
well as fear and death. The vampire represents contrasting images of
civilized nobility and aggression/ferocity. It may depict someone in your waking life whose charm may ultimately prove harmful. Deep
down inside, you know that this person is bad for you, yet you are
still drawn to her or him. Vampires also sometimes relate to decisions
about sex and losing your virginity. Alternatively,
to see a vampire suggests that you are feeling physically or emotionally
drained. The vampire may also be symbolic of someone who is addicted to
drugs or someone in an obsessive relationship.
To dream that you are a vampire signifies that you are sucking in the life energy of others for your own selfish benefit."
You may be wondering, "How do these apply to you, Anna?"
I'm no dream analysis expert, but I'll take a stab in the dark. When
it comes to the apocalypse, I have been upset with quite a few people
lately in real life.
Some refuse to acknowledge that their friends are
complete assholes. They will defend their asshole friends, if not
justify WHY their friends are total assholes, until they are blue in the
face.
I do NOT expect for our mutual friends to choose me over their other friends.
However,
I refuse to attend ANY AND ALL social events, which require us to be in
each others physical presence. Therefore, I have chosen to social distance
myself from certain friends, especially flaky, cheap talking friends.
As
for doppelgangers, I keep pondering about my own. Reading that part
about my supposed doppelganger being a "bad omen" made me worry about my
health.
I was expecting something bad to physically happen to me.
Instead, on Thursday morning around 3 am-ish, my mother had another mild
seizure.
I suppose my doppelganger signified some
sort of payback for something. I am unsure of what the payback was for
but regardless, my mother had another seizure.
Over these last
several years, I have noticed that every time she has a seizure, it is usually before
her birthday. My mother was born in late April, so you are welcome to do the math on my doppelganger's significance.
I
have no clear idea what the alternate universe represents. Maybe this
is saying everyone has a good and evil side to themselves. Otherwise, it
could possibly be saying that everybody has a doppelganger somewhere in
an alternate universe; Anything is possible.
Last
but surely not the least are vampires. Lately, I've been feeling
physically and emotionally drained. This is the main reason why I have
been struggling to write my latest story, All Of Chastity's Men.
I
am somewhat basing this Semi-Fictional Story on scumbag exes and other
people's friends from over the years. This includes wanting revenge for
being screwed over within these last 3 years.
I think it is safe to say,
that All Of Chastity's Men has a "woman scorned" theme to it with
Horror elements.
Meanwhile, I've had obsessive
feelings for someone for more than a decade. He is like a drug addiction, that I
cannot seem to permanently break.
Speaking of drug addiction, I have
been told by some of his friends that he is a drug addict. Because so many people love to tell lies, especially HIS friends, I don't know how much of it is the truth and how much are complete lies.
A lot of lying, backstabbing, manipulating, and opportunism are involved regarding HIS so-called "friends."
He
always has a tendency to stay friends with jealous and petty people. They resent
the fact, that I ever had feelings for him rather than for THEM. They also lied to me in the past with their OWN hidden agendas.
How
do I know whether or not they are telling me the truth about him
and/or about each other? So, based on all this information, what are your thoughts?
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